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We're finally "caught up" with the blog and things that have happened, but I really wish it hadn't worked out like this. I wish I'd actually gotten a chance to write every time I wanted to. The details just aren't the same when you're remembering them a week later. I really want to get better at it; at saying what happens when it happens. So much of the emotion and spirit of our day to day life here is lost when we have to just give a timeline update of what's happened two weeks ago or so.
For example: this week we haven't been out to see much of Vienna, as far as sites and museums and stuff goes. In fact we made several plans to see the zoo, the giant wheel and the aquarium on different days this week, but it just didn't quite fit. Eric spends more time at school these days because his semester is finally getting going. Sometimes I miss him, sometimes it's nice to have the house to myself. But for better or worse, it definitely leaves me with more time on my hands. I have more time for real life, and we have less time for the fairytale version of this European adventure.
This week's real life emotional struggle: school! For me actually, not for him (although he has had his fair share of struggles with the group work he's been doing for his classes). My struggle with school is different than his, because I'm not even in school. I LOVE being in school. I absolutely love to learn. I haven't been in school this year, I've been working and now I'm here! I didn't think I would get to go back until next fall either, but Eric and I have decided together that we'll just make it work for January; provided I can decide what I want to go back for. Hence, the struggle of the week for me.
I was studying criminal justice and psychology before, and I think I would enjoy going back to that. I liked the classes I took the last semester, and the information is certainly interesting to me, but it does have it's downsides. Example: Eric finds it depressing. I can't really talk to him about school, or about work later, if he finds it all depressing. That's one con for criminal justice.
There are other options I've been mulling over lately too though. Should I do a shorter course, maybe earn a certificate or a diploma that will have a more practical use in the future. Should I study a field that will be more helpful and applicable and easier to work in if I have kids someday. There are just so many choices that it's really wearing me out. I am so excited about school and going back, that I feel like I need to make this decision instantly, but I've found it's not an instant decision unfortunately. It's also not one Eric, or anyone else can make for me, like where we're gong to eat dinner tonight. I have to make it, and I want to make it quickly. I want to be able to just know what I should do, like some people always have, but it hasn't been that easy of course.
So this is what I've really been doing lately. No pictures, no beautiful buildings, no zoo. It's just been me in this house and at the school working on lists and lists of options and of courses and of things in general that interest me. Today's task: lists of pros and cons. Eric told me this is something I just have to do, so that's what I'll be working on for the next hour or two or three or however long it takes to get it done, or for him to come home from school today.
For example: this week we haven't been out to see much of Vienna, as far as sites and museums and stuff goes. In fact we made several plans to see the zoo, the giant wheel and the aquarium on different days this week, but it just didn't quite fit. Eric spends more time at school these days because his semester is finally getting going. Sometimes I miss him, sometimes it's nice to have the house to myself. But for better or worse, it definitely leaves me with more time on my hands. I have more time for real life, and we have less time for the fairytale version of this European adventure.
This week's real life emotional struggle: school! For me actually, not for him (although he has had his fair share of struggles with the group work he's been doing for his classes). My struggle with school is different than his, because I'm not even in school. I LOVE being in school. I absolutely love to learn. I haven't been in school this year, I've been working and now I'm here! I didn't think I would get to go back until next fall either, but Eric and I have decided together that we'll just make it work for January; provided I can decide what I want to go back for. Hence, the struggle of the week for me.
I was studying criminal justice and psychology before, and I think I would enjoy going back to that. I liked the classes I took the last semester, and the information is certainly interesting to me, but it does have it's downsides. Example: Eric finds it depressing. I can't really talk to him about school, or about work later, if he finds it all depressing. That's one con for criminal justice.
There are other options I've been mulling over lately too though. Should I do a shorter course, maybe earn a certificate or a diploma that will have a more practical use in the future. Should I study a field that will be more helpful and applicable and easier to work in if I have kids someday. There are just so many choices that it's really wearing me out. I am so excited about school and going back, that I feel like I need to make this decision instantly, but I've found it's not an instant decision unfortunately. It's also not one Eric, or anyone else can make for me, like where we're gong to eat dinner tonight. I have to make it, and I want to make it quickly. I want to be able to just know what I should do, like some people always have, but it hasn't been that easy of course.
So this is what I've really been doing lately. No pictures, no beautiful buildings, no zoo. It's just been me in this house and at the school working on lists and lists of options and of courses and of things in general that interest me. Today's task: lists of pros and cons. Eric told me this is something I just have to do, so that's what I'll be working on for the next hour or two or three or however long it takes to get it done, or for him to come home from school today.
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